It's kinda struck me. The fact that I'm now almost seventeen. The fact that now I'm on my third and last year of my high school days. And the fact that Harry Potter Saga has finally coming to an end.
It's confusing and frustrating.
Confusing, cause I still can't differentiate between my friends, my enemies, and my would-be-enemies. I don't know if it's just my brain going slow, or my mind is just simply too naive to piled up those things. Many of my friends are acting like it. Like they know, which one they should take notice. Which one will stab you from the back. Which one will be beneficial.
I simply don't care. And I don't want to care.
Frustrating, cause now everybody's talking about universities and tasks and schools and studies. And I just can't handle it! I missed my old friends. I miss having fun with them. I miss lazying out, pretending we're listening to the teachers but it was all fun and games that we did. I miss it. I miss the feeling to not worry about a lot of things, with my friends. Not just alone.
But it is reality. It is what I have to endure, what I have to face each and every day. What I need to seep in into my mind, and start to act it out one day. One day. Pray for me that it won't be coming just around the corner.
And the dramas, the gossips, the prejudices that I faced everyday. Just how many drama queens and kings have I met these past few years?
How I wish people would just mind their own business and leave other people in peace. So what if someone's having an affair with this guy? So what if a girl falls in love with a wrong guy? So what, if your best friend is in love with this guy who just broke up with his 'oh-so-popular' girl whose capable of bullying your best friend with her 'oh-so-nasty' friends? You couldn't just leave her out like that. Is that how you valued your friendship? That low?
I don't like seeing people ruining their own friendships. I mean, it is their business, their choice. But still.....
And I know that it's not my right to say it. Cause I myself still struggles to maintain my friendships. To maintain that bond which probably my second most important after family.
How I wish things would just go back to normal. Like old times.
It's confusing and frustrating.
Confusing, cause I still can't differentiate between my friends, my enemies, and my would-be-enemies. I don't know if it's just my brain going slow, or my mind is just simply too naive to piled up those things. Many of my friends are acting like it. Like they know, which one they should take notice. Which one will stab you from the back. Which one will be beneficial.
I simply don't care. And I don't want to care.
Frustrating, cause now everybody's talking about universities and tasks and schools and studies. And I just can't handle it! I missed my old friends. I miss having fun with them. I miss lazying out, pretending we're listening to the teachers but it was all fun and games that we did. I miss it. I miss the feeling to not worry about a lot of things, with my friends. Not just alone.
But it is reality. It is what I have to endure, what I have to face each and every day. What I need to seep in into my mind, and start to act it out one day. One day. Pray for me that it won't be coming just around the corner.
And the dramas, the gossips, the prejudices that I faced everyday. Just how many drama queens and kings have I met these past few years?
How I wish people would just mind their own business and leave other people in peace. So what if someone's having an affair with this guy? So what if a girl falls in love with a wrong guy? So what, if your best friend is in love with this guy who just broke up with his 'oh-so-popular' girl whose capable of bullying your best friend with her 'oh-so-nasty' friends? You couldn't just leave her out like that. Is that how you valued your friendship? That low?
I don't like seeing people ruining their own friendships. I mean, it is their business, their choice. But still.....
And I know that it's not my right to say it. Cause I myself still struggles to maintain my friendships. To maintain that bond which probably my second most important after family.
How I wish things would just go back to normal. Like old times.
it's ur right to say anything.
BalasHapusand i don't try to defend myself by saying this, but things r getting a little less uncontrolled in my -our teenage lives, things like tasks, foods, and.. feelings.
i can totally understand ur point of view in this thing, Bi. and i wont say dat i dont see this as u see it, too. believe me, i too WAS seeing it the way u see it.
but then again i think again, that my way out was the best way out i cud get for this time, i hope it wont last long, my arrogance.
it sucks for me too, for us all. i'm so sorry ya bia for the foolish act i lately have done by my own-self, and i tots understand if u cant be agreed w me, i myself have this doubt abt the way i act too. and i dont mean to hurt anybody. i just... have this new way of seeing abt that bestfriend girl.
i just hope u wont do anything lyk me biiii bcs i know u r waaaay much smarter than me in handling this :)
maaf maaf maaf maaf banget bia!!!!!
the latest post is actually... about my brother's visa to UK. that has nothing to do with this hahahahahahaha
BalasHapusgapapa yg penting gua yg jadi ga enak biii sama engkauuu! jd maaf2an aja mumpung mau lebaran jugaaa! :D